5:50pm,30/11/2010

she is cute,smart,intelligent, most of all , attractive..and some mysterious
her 1st day here was so unexpected...i can see from her eye that she is not staying here for long,
after 1 week, i was really happy to see that she is still there. One day in the 2nd week, i cant see her at the place, i was thinking: she got better offer from...? My mind was lingering to no where, I cant focus my work. The 2nd day, she is there! I was totally delighted, and I was energized for the full day.For very long time, finally I could find a reason y i like to work---->so that i can see her =) I tried different ways to approach her, get to know what she think, what she like and what kind of animal she is ..After some time, I can feel there is a gap between us..cant find much common topic, she is not willing to disclose more about herself, rarely got chance to meet up with her..the only chance was lunch time, but with a lot of "sisters" around...I found all my way,seeking help from frens, both male and female frens..some suggest me to start from her "sisters"..i refused to apply this trick as i feel that it is too risky,and the so called" sisters" are not really de "sisters" as they are more like a temporary mate/colleagues. I asked another question: how to know that she got a bf,one of my fren provided me a simple yet intuitive answer: frequent call/sms.FOr the few days, something "pitiful" happened..from what i observed, she was doing it really frequent..my heart was so cold..after that i applied some "magic" on her, some "direct mirroring",but nothing has worked..really down...At last,thats today,i used up all my vision observation power(normally i only use hearing and sense to observe)...i conclude that there is strong indication(what i call:" strong feeling") that she is not available..Around 5:50pm, i got confirmed to my conclusion...the truth is always "great"..immediately after it,my superior called me up to assign some tasks,but of course my mind was blank and certainly was not hearing what he is saying..only got to know a good news albeit this very sad,disgrace,tragedy moment..he will be onleave tomorrow..now what i can do is observe verbal,non-verbal body language/signal that a "belonged" sayan should be having...keep connected with her, get whatever opportunity i could hv..i am still waiting.......take a lesson for my next story
last thanks goes to Mr K..for telling me the truth,before i go further and hurt further
song for this:
从不喜欢孤单一个,岁月如歌

Joy or Pain,Joy and Bitter

as expected,she got her another half
sooner or later..
but she look innocent..though i cant say she is not happy,not sweet

thats y i wont wish them good luck! but wont curse dem either...

but there is no pain..only bitterly joy
dats really sad
pain can be separated from joy ecly
but not bitterness

last but not least
memorable event muz come along with memorable songs
爱我的人和我爱的人&我无所谓

Jz got to know what it means for "it's complicated"