How do i live

After few nights of struggling, my mind is still confused. She is just too attractive to the extent that is worth dying everything just to get her, even i was provided with the info that there is a great barrier.. i can hardly imagined what i watch from tv is happening on me..i was teasing at those fanatic gal chaser, even "sudah berpunya"..how ironic...should i say i understand what it takes and why they do that now? Can we just ignore how we feel just because the reality tell us we shouldn't/not wise to do so?Complicated mood now..lost my passion to pursue career,exam,money,...(maybe not the thing i really want..is a bridge to what i really want..).

should i start reading the books i have bought? "The Game 把妹达人","心魔行销"...dun think it helps..do i hv sufficient time/chance to apply it? I don't know how do i live after the day...

even she is there everyday..but i cant feel her heart was there..

Song of the night:

How do i live,如何可以不爱她..